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Sexy. New. Yoga. Mat.

Yes, I splurged. I finally got myself that Manduka blackmat Pro. And yes, it is delicious.

It was a birthday gift from me to me! So far, it’s been great, although I’m going to need to prep it tonight because it got a little slippery towards the end of class. Amazing though, how much relieve and stress I felt lift off of my wrist! It’s way thicker than the other mat I had, and it’s WAY LESS gummy. I was even able to do 100 mountain climbers. AND I took my little sister for fun. Annndddddd she wanted to punch me in the face after. I think that is a big pat on the back for me 🙂

On the exercise front, also took a dance class again finally, after about 3 years of being off the radar. No choreography yet… but everything takes time! I need badly for my muscle memory to magically appear and show me that I finally can learn how to shablam properly….





Roasted Butternut Squash with Brown Butter Sauce



I haven’t had a recipe blow my mind in quite a while. With the new palate, I’m beginning to pick out flavors I hadn’t tasted as well in the past, and it’s getting me really excited! I pretty much devoured this the first time I made it a few days ago, and I’m ready to round two. This is a fantastic Fall/Winter dish since you can serve warm and has pumpkin pie -esqe quality to it.

The original recipe for the first portion was found on The Paleo Project (she has a great list of recipes that I plan on trying here). The brown butter sauce I found on Epicurious, and I thought it would be a great compliment for the dish, especially since I’m using grass fed butter (Kerry Gold from Trader Joe’s).

Here goes:


  • 1 Large Butternut Squash (or in my case, two medium sized ones)
  • Grass Fed Butter – 1/3 cup
  • 2 tbs Olive Oil (from Portugal – but any will do)
  • 1 tbs Nutmeg
  • 2 tbs Cinnamon


Peel the Butternut Squash, cut off the stem ends. Scoop out the guts (make sure to save the seeds for a snack later….). Preheat oven to 350 degrees.


Cut into 1 X 1 cubes (you can cut a little smaller if you like them to be softer). In a large bowl, combine the squash with the olive oil and cinnamon. Dash a little nutmeg on top. Combine well.

Put on either a cookie dish with aluminum foil or (I prefer) a plexiglass dish. Spread evenly and leave a little room between cubes if you can. Pop in the oven for 45 minutes or tender. In the meantime, start the brown butter sauce. Melt the butter in a small pan and combine with nutmeg. Stir the mixture on low heat until it turns a creamy light brown color, about 3-5 minutes.


Bring out those licious squash cubes, and pour the nut butter sauce all over dat ass. Turn slightly to coat, then eat!

Modifications: You can add a little honey before roasting if you’re allowing yourself some sweet time, but the dish tastes like dessert all on it’s own with a fresh palate 🙂

**SIDE NOTE: Never, ever, ever thought I would eat vegetables for breakfast!

Aesthetic | Beauty

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At this point, you all have a good idea of what my health goals are. But what about my aesthetic roles?

Isn’t the point of losing bodyfat and having fantastic skin and amazing flexibility is the ability to just look good? Above is a great example of what I ideally would like to look like at some point over the course of the upcoming year. Is it outrageous? Perhaps. Especially since they are professional models and probably about 6 ft tall. Is it impossible to believe that I may come close to achieving that percentage of bodyfat? I think not.

Plus, I’d like to imagine that I can wear this gorgeous Chili Pepper outfit from Dolce & Gabbana for Summer 2012….

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And, let’s face it, Rihanna has one of the best bodies in town. This may take longer to achieve, but I need to have a vision…


And of course, I’d be happy looking a little like Sophia Loren 🙂

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sofia loren

Cauliflower Crust Pizza

Cauliflower Crust Pizza

Cauliflower Crust Pizza

It’s time to get started and show you guys a few recipes that I’ve been playing around with.

To begin, I’d like to show you guys my “Guilty Pleasure”…. Cauliflower Crust Pizza.

I originally found this recipe on Recipe Girl when I was still in my research phase over the course of the last year, and I wanted to make something that tasted naughty, but was actually delicious. When I found out that I’d be eating a large portion of cauliflower if this recipe turned out right, I got excited since all my life I’ve avoided eating cauliflower and couldn’t stand the smell. This pizza is fantastic, and my boyfriend loves it (very important, if you want to have your way around the house).

Since this particular version still requires gobs of cheese, eat sparingly.

Just an FYI: This version still has a large amount of dairy, especially by Paleo standards, and if you’re a vegan, there is probably no way to make this work unless you use processed vegan cheese, which I’d like to avoid.

Here goes!

Cauliflower Crust Pizza (Make 8 Mini Pizzas)

  • Cauliflower (1 Head)
  • Mozzarella Cheese (1/2 Cup for pizza, 1/4 for topping)
  • Grated Parmesan Cheese (1/4 Cup)
  • Dried Oregano
  • Egg Whites (4)
  • Basil, finely chopped
  • Garlic (1 Clove), finely chopped
  • Sea Salt
  • Pepper
  • Garlic Powder
  • Pizza Sauce (Recipe Below)
  • Pepperoni or Other Toppings (Optional)
  • Parchment Paper + Cookie Sheet (Necessary)

PIZZA SAUCE (You can also buy decent sauce without additives at Trader Joe’s)

  • Diced Tomatoes (Canned, Organic)
  • Tomato Sauce (Canned, Organic)
  • Garlic (1 Clove)
  • Bell Pepper (1)
  • Yellow Onion (1/2)
  • Sea Salt
  • Pepper
  • Dried Oregano
  • Sugar (1/2 teaspoon) – PS I know we discussed no sugar, but this is very minimal per serving and NECESSARY in chemistry, unless you want heartburn.


Cut Garlic in half and remove the stem to avoid bitter flavors. Finely chop all Garlic, and roughly chop Onion and Bell Pepper. Toss a little EVOO (Extra Virgin Olive Oil) in the CAULDRON and toss in the garlic.

Stir until fragrant, and toss in onion. Stir the onions until they are clear, then add in the Bell Pepper. Stir again for about 3 more minutes. Add in both Diced Tomatoes and Tomato Sauce. Season with Sea Salt and Pepper, and add the 1/2 teaspoon of sugar. Keep flame at medium until the mixture boils, then bring down flame and simmer on low for about 30 minutes.


Pre-heat oven to 450. Start with the Cauliflower. Chop off all stems and clean thoroughly. Either throw in Food Processor or chop into small chunks. It should now resemble rice. Put bits in microwave safe bowl, cover, and steam on high for 5 minutes. Remove and drain what liquid you can, and put aside to cool. Once it’s cool enough, add in cheeses, egg whites, and seasonings. Mix thoroughly.

Lay parchment paper on cookie sheet, and proceed by flattening out Cauliflower mixture as thin as possible onto the paper and making 4 mini pizzas. The reason why I make mini pizzas as opposed to large ones is that it’s easier to flip to get it crunchier, and becomes easier to hold like actual pizza. Place in oven for 25 minutes, or until it starts browning and looks easy enough to flip.

Flip the pizzas, and place in oven for another 20 minutes. Once the top is brown, bring out of oven and put some sauce on each one. DO NOT OVER-SAUCE. I made that mistake one of the first times, and it was impossible to hold the pizza like you would a regular slice… proceed by putting the remainder of cheese, pepperoni and any other toppings.

Throw some Oregano on dat ass. Place back in oven and broil for 10 minutes or until cheese melts.

Tis’ All!

Helpful Links


In order to get an understanding of what in the hell made me obsessed with creating the “Best Me” possible, we’re going to have to dive into my background over a series of posts. I’ll dispel information as I feel necessary, but in the meantime, I’ll provide links of what research I’ve acquired over the past year and a half that I feel are suitable to my needs, and can provide the most positive change for a lifetime. It’ll give you an idea of where my head is at currently, and what is influencing me at this point in time; also, in another series of posts, I’ll be delving into these topics on a personal level and tracking any progress or problems with each over time.

Have fun!









Welcome to Sugar | Kill

I see you’ve found your way to my page. Welcome.

Here’s a primer about this blog: I will be experimenting with a few different things in the upcoming months because I’m interested in seeing if I can make permanent changes once and for all in my dietary habits. I’ve been curious about Primal and Paleo as a lifestyle paradigm shift, if you will.. and am finally ready to make the jump.

One of these experiments is cutting out an entire category of taste for varying amounts of time…
This category is: Sweetness.

I didn’t realize that many people have already done this, and thus I’ve found a support system with information via The Whole30.

It officially started 6 days ago, after a week long stint of beers, turkey, and pies.
Essentially, what I’ve been doing for the past 6 days is eliminating all “sweet tasting things” as well as anything that may contain sugar or carbohydrates regardless of taste. This means all bread, all actual sugar elements (Honey, Stevia, Sucralose… etc), even fruit. One significant change that I feel has helped me get through the week is IF (Intermittent Fasting) with a fast window of about 14-16 hours per the LeanGains method. There are still questions as to whether IF is as effective for women as it is for men, mostly because our bodies are on a different hormonal roller coaster which men’s are NOT, which is part of the experiment with my particular body. I also plan on playing with the notions of Dairy VS No Dairy, but I am currently eating Diary. I plan on finishing my first “No Sweetness” stint on December 15.

For exercise, I currently take a local DDP Yoga class twice a week (Yoga for bodybuilders, created by Diamond Dallas Page), as well as casual walking, occasional squats & deadlifts, and a hike here and there in the mountains surrounding Los Angeles. Glutes are my main concern, and I prefer to build in the lower body.

To be honest, I’ve hit a wall today. At this point, everything is beginning to taste very bitter and unsatisfying, and it is finally causing some extreme withdrawal symptoms. Last night, I awoke at midnight with a migraine, and I find myself craving at least a touch of sweet once an hour, even something as simple as a single blueberry. I’m feeling stressed, almost like a crack fiend…. for reals.

There have been benefits, however, even in 6 shorts days. Now I’ve been craving more meat than carbohydrates (starchy carbs in general haven’t been an issue all week.. and usually I die for a potato or even a scent of a bagel). Meat and veggies are tasting much more delicious. I’ve managed to wean myself off diet coke (which we’ll refer to as DC). Also, I’ve noticed my sense of smell may have increased, which is odd. I can smell sweet things from a mile away.

Although this blog may seem like a diet blog, it is not. Yes, fat loss and increased energy levels are goals that I’d like to achieve, but more importantly, I’d like to stop the cycle of being bad to my body. I will stop yo-yo dieting, I will begin to understand my body, and I will begin to heal my mind, body and soul. This battle is really about how the mind controls the body, and all the soul can do is bear the outcome unless it overcomes the mind. With each step achieved towards greater health and understanding of my body, will come a happier self..

So let’s begin.